Notes just notes. The whole story belongs to us.
*that night before I just was there with those contractions all night periodically soothing a restless toddler and asking my baby, ‘what are you doing in there’…..every 15 minutes, all night
*that morning I was surprised banking on you appearing over a week and half later husband of course took it in stride
*my family, my dear sweet littles. you took it all as i knew you would, according to your personalities. one lying in the snow for hours anxious but not wanting to miss the appearance and those first kisses to your new sibling finally settling in to a cooking project lamb’s leg roast one of the best meals i have ever had devoured less than an hour post birth and i think those midwives appreciated it too. another gathering and chopping wood creating a warm fire tended all day by you this is just what i expected from you.
*back labor, so that is what everyone talks about. me, whispering then shouting. it just hurt too much to move between contractions.
*contractions, hmmm….how is it i always forget you are all treble and no bass? tried to take your high pitch to a low level
*my friend, thank you for playing games and soothing my others, for the mom of five club after birth and for joking with me after about the afterbirth pains-oof.
*midwives, thank you a million times over
*homebirth, such a gift to our family four times that first birth in the hospital taught me homebirth was for me
*my baby, when i saw your face that first time i knew you were a Red thank you for choosing us
photo by one of our midwives, as red was ‘pinking up’